WE ADAPT, WE COMPROMISE ... covid19, online teaching

salam and good day,

It's a beautiful day. A day for spending at the beach or a park or taking my grandchildren to the swimming pool, before covid19 that is. 

Right now, its best to follow the government's order and stay at home. To quote Clint Eastwood in Heartbreak Ridge: 'we adapt, we compromise'. Right on mr Eastwood. 

Speaking of adapting and compromising, how do you feel about online teaching?

Me? I'm so not into online teaching. Maybe it's because i was born in the 60s and grew up in the 70s and 80s, way before the age of IT, or, may be i'm just old fashion. 

Don't get me wrong. I have nothing against technology or online teaching for that matter. Technology is great, just not my cup of tea. It is certainly useful, and some people might be really good at online teaching. It's a matter of personal preference, I guess. 

i remember a scene from the Bohemian Rhapsody biopic where they went to a farm to record their album 'A night at the opera'. At one point, after Brian did his solo part for BoRap, he asked what Freddie thought of it, and Freddie said, 'almost perfect'. 

Brian: Almost perfect?
Freddie: Now play it like you actually wrote it.
Brian: i did. I wrote that part.
Freddie: put your body into it. 

And he went on to say, put your heart into it. 

That is exactly how i feel about online teaching. Making a video of my lecture or lesson is not a big problem, but putting my heart into the video is not easy. Some might say, just post the video. After that, it's all up to the students. Who cares whether the understand it or not. Well, I care.

Anyway, there was a forum (online, of course) with my vice chansellor this morning,  on the new norm for us in UMP. Nèedless to say, online teaching and learning is going to become a normal thing, post MCO.

So, there is no escape for me. Heart or no heart, I'll have to get used to it. All I can do is to give it my best... find ways to put some rock n roll into my online teaching materials...LOL

Just like with the movement control order, we adapt, we compromise, the same goes for online teaching. In the meantime, i will do some gardening, helps me think.

Salam Ramadhan to all muslims. 

BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY ... ini bukan review

Salam and good day.

Been a while, but here I am again. Two weeks ago, I finally got to watch 'Bohemian Rhapsody', two years after it was released. Sad, but it's been ages since I've set foot in a cinema. Thanks to Astro, I finally got to see it. 

I recorded the movie and I watched it over and over, and it breaks my heart every time. All their songs came back to me one by one, songs that I grew up with. Memories of my late brother, who introduced me to Queen when I was 10 or 11, singing along to 'another one bites the dust', 'Fat Bottomed Girls' and 'Bohemian Rhapsody'. My brother was a big fan of 70s and 80s rock, and, needless to say,so am I, and I am still Queen's number 1 fan.

 Memories of my days studying in the UK in the 80s, scrambling to the common room to watch 'Top of the Pops', going into record shops to buy their 'A kind of Magic' album and watching 'The Highlanders' a few times because of Queen, and also because of Christopher Lambert, in that order. The movie brought them all back to me.

I love the movie, mainly because I love Queen and I adore Freddie Mercury. Rami Malek, did a great job of playing Freddie. The movie doesn't have any hi-tech special effects or any great fighting scenes in it. It's just a simple story, with great acting and awesome music. What else do you need? 

I was in England in 1985, so, I know about the live aid concert, and I can relate to the excitement of that time.I breaks my heart, every time I get to the 'live aid concert' scene at the end, seeing them perform the best live rock concert ever, knowing, six years after that, Freddy Mercury would die. 

I guess I'm still mourning for the loss of someone so beautiful and so talented. 

RIP. Love you always, Freddie Mercury..

here is the video of what is still known as the best live rock concert ever, from youtube.

MY PRECIOUS

Photo from today.com

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Kudos nurse Katie Windsor. Babies in the nicu are more than super. Oh... by the way... nicu stands for neo-natal intensive care unit. This is where premature or ill newborn babies are placed.
How do i know this? My third grandchild was diagnosed with meningitis when he was 2 weeks old. He was in the nicu for nearly a month. Sad to say...I didn't even know about the nicu before that.

Now he is a healthy bubbly 11 months old baby

So... having seen what the babies and parents in the nicu had to go through... i agree... they could use something miraculous to brighten up their surroundings.
By my standard... the infants, their parents, the nurses and doctors in the nicu are all super heroes.
And my all time favourite super hero is.... of course... Batman... err.... Michael Keaton batman... :-)

THE FLIP SIDE

Salam and good day.                                 Saya bukan tiap hari masuk ke fb. Kali terakhir saya menjengok fb saya... dua hari lepas... Ada beberapa orang yang post berita ini... http://www.kedahnews.com/2016/09/gadis-kedah-bakal-doktor-dihina-kerja.html?m=1.                                       Kerana sudah beberapa kali saya terserempak dengan berita ini... Saya akhirnya membaca berita itu.                         Kisah seorang graduan bakal doktor bekerja di kedai buku sementara menunggu posting, dihina boleh seorang pelanggan. Memang tidak patut berlaku.                                           Cuma... Saya terfikir... Andainya yang dihina itu bukan graduan bakal doktor. Andainya yang dihina itu cuma seorang pemegang sijil SPM atau lebih rendah dari itu, apakah ada yang akan peduli?                                  

WOW...

Salam.
Tiada apa yang penting yang mahu saya tulis, cuma sudah lama tidak melawat blog saya ini... Maka saya terpanggil untuk mencoret sesuatu walaupun kecil.

Pagi semalam... Saya mendengar Sepahtu Sinar dalam kereta , ada kumpulan Radja. Bagusnya... Saya memang suka kumpulan Radja... Ini kumpulan dari Indonesia yang paling saya minati... Sama lah macam Shuib... LOL...
Paling menarik dengar ketiga2 mereka menyanyi bersama Radja... OK juga suara mereka... Tapi suara vokalis kumpulan Radja memang WOW...tak boleh ditandingi... Sangat sexy suaranya.
Haha... Itulah main point saya sebenarnya... Suara vokalis Radja sangatlah sexy.  OK. Jumpa lagi lain kali.
Saya share lagu yang paling saya suka... Enjoy....

seriously?????

Atas rasa simpati, PERKASA buat kutipan untuk bantu Kiki 
sumber: Astro Awani.

Wow. 
Tak faham saya. Ramai lagi yang boleh dibantu... orang2 miskin, anak2 yatim, kanak2 yang didera, atau Taska2 dan Tadika2 yang memerlukan dana... tapi mereka membuat keputusan untuk membantu seorang yang sudah di sabitkan kesalahan sebagai samseng jalanan. Sungguh saya tak faham.

 PERKASA Selangor ini... bukan PERKASA Pahang. 

Tindakan ini seolah-olah mencabar keputusan mahkamah yang telah menjatuhkan hukuman denda RM5000 kepada Kiki. Apakah mereka fikir mahkamah telah bertindak secara tidak adil terhadap Kiki, atau PERKASA Selangor memang memperjuangkan hak samseng jalanan... lol.

Saya pun ada juga saman dari MPK... belum bayar lagi ... PERKASA tak mahu bantukah... muahahahaha...

excuse me while I cry...

Salam and good day.

A sad day for us... my thoughts and prayers for those on board of MH17. 

you know... after the MH370 incident... I deactivated my fb account... simply because I got sick of comments blaming the authorities... name calling and speculations done by facebookers.  However, yesterday, after hearing the shocking news about MH17... yes... shocking when I read the words... "shot down' and 'no survivors'... OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway... I reactivated my fb account just to see postings about this incident ... in the hope that maybe people have learnt from the previous tragedy about how important it is to show our support to our country in times of trouble.

well... the first comment I came across after reactivating my fb was... " the government should have changed the route of the plane... "

my heart said... give me a break... my mind was screaming... BLOODY IDIOT!!!  so... it took me all of 45 seconds before I deactivated my fb account... again.

I have no words of comfort. I can only cry. so... excuse me while I cry...
I cry for the passengers and crew of MH17
I cry for Malaysia Airlines
I cry for our country
I cry for the loss of humanity...
excuse me... while I cry... 

my condolences to the family members of the passengers and crew... Al-fatihah for the muslims.
 
GELAP MALAM TIDAK SEGELAP PERGIMU...

USIA KERETA ATAU PEMANDU?

salam semua. Saya sebenarnya langsung tidak berminat untuk menulis apa-apa yang berkaitan dengan politik atau hal-hal kerajaan. Namun saya terpanggil untuk menulis tentang issue JPJmengharamkan kereta 12 tahun keatas ini, kerana saya juga terbabit secara langsung dalam hal ini.

Rasional yang diberikan adalah untuk melindungi orang ramai. ' Kami tak mahu pemandu bermasalah ini mengancam keselamatan penumpang mereka atau pengguna jalan raya lain,'... katanya. 

Katanya, ' pemandu bermasalah' ... maka haramkan saja pemandu itu...  kenapa mahu diharamkan kereta berusia 12 tahun ke atas. Apakah semua 'pemandu bermasalah ini memandu kereta yang usianya melebihi 12 tahun? Tiada pula diberikan statistik atau bukti yang menunjukkan tahun kereta yang dipandu oleh 'pemandu bermasalah' itu.

Istilah 'pemandu bermasalah' juga tidak dihuraikan. Apakah maksud 'pemandu bermasalah' itu? Siapa yang dikategorikan sebagai 'pemandu bermasalah?' Adakah ia merujuk kepada... road -bullies, pemandu yang tidak punya lesen memandu, pemandu yang selalu langgar lampu isyarat dsb... atau adakah hanya pemandu yang memandu kenderaan yang usianya lebih 12 tahun saja yang dianggap sebagai 'pemandu bermasalah?' 

Bermasalah itu maksudnya apa sebenarnya... tidak juga dihuraikan oleh mereka.

Rasional kedua adalah kerana ... 'kereta berusia lebih 12 tahun tidak selamat untuk berada di jalan raya.' 

sekali lagi saya bertanya... apa bukti yang menunjukkan kereta berusia lebih 12 tahun tidak selamat? Tunjukkan lah statistik kemalangan jalanraya sambil 'highlight'kan jenis dan tahun kenderaan yang terlibat. 

Setakat yang saya selalu nampak, yang terlibat dalam kemalangan kebanyakan kereta yang agak baru... dan kemalangan selalu berlaku adalah akibat faktor kecuaian pemandu, seperti mengantuk, mengunakan telephone ketika memandu, memandu dalam keadaan mabuk,memandu melebihi had laju, mahu test power kenderaan dsb,, faktor usia kenderaan langsung tidak bersamgkut paut dalam hal ini.  

Rasional yang paling tak boleh saya terima adalah... ' menggalakkan rakyat Malaysia membeli dan menggunapakai kereta baru untuk menjadi rakyat Malaysia seperti negara maju Singapore'. 

Saya yang memang kabur dari segi ekonomi ini, langsung tidak nampak kaitan antara membeli dan menggunapakai kereta baru dan menjadi rakyat Malaysia seperti negara maju Singapore. 
Dan kenapa mahu rakyat Malaysia menjadi seperti Singapore... apakah rakyat Singapore lebih bagus dari rakyat Malaysia...? Dari segi apa?

Jika ini dilaksanakan, maka golongan pertengahan dan bawah nampaknya akan menanggung hutang kereta sepanjang hayat.  Saya sendiri juga begitu. Pinjaman kerajaan kereta Atos selama sembilan tahun baru habis saya bayar... dan dua tahun dari sekarang saya perlu membuat pinjaman lagi? Sekurang-kurangnya, saya punya pendapatan yang tetap... bagaimana pula dengan golongan petani, nelayan serta mereka yang bekerja sendiri?

Saya bukan jenis yang suka bertukar2 kereta setiap 4 atau 5 tahun. Saya akan guna selagi boleh digunakan. Saya ada kereta Ford Telstar yang berusia 28 tahun. Masih baik, cuma rosak kerana tenggelam sewaktu banjir tahun lepas, Dan untuk perjalanan jauh, saya lebih suka memandu kereta Ford kerana enjinnya lebih berkuasa dan ia lebih stabil.. 

Oh ya... dan setakat ini alhamdulillah, selama saya memandu kedua-dua kereta saya yang sudah berusia itu, belum pernah terlibat dalam kemalangan. Cuma ada kemalangan-kemalangan kecil seperti melanggar pagar rumah sendiri atau melanggar divider jalan, tapi itu adalah ketika anak-anak saya yang memandu.  Maka... kemalangan disebabkan oleh faktor usia kereta atau faktor pamandu?

KELIRU...this ain't a love post

Saya sebenarnya agak keliru dengan istilah "friend' di facebook. Ini adalah kerana, selain daripada mereka yang sememangnya saya kenal di alam nyata, yang lain2 cuma saya kenal berdasarkan apa yang tertera di wall atau di profile mereka. Lebih malang lagi, jika apa yang tertera di profile juga adalah maklumat yang direka2. 

Persahabatan di alam nyata adalah berdasrkan kejujuran, keikhlasan serta sifat saling mempercayai. Namun di facebook, apa yang ternampak hanya lah aspek-aspek yang mahu ditunjukkan oleh seseorang kepada kita, yang mungkin juga langsung tidak sama dengan personaliti sebenar mereka. Apa yang ditunjukkan kepada umum mungkin hanyalah personaliti rekaan atau khayalan mereka yang mungkin bertujuan untuk menarik perhatian serta membuat mereka lebih terkanal di alam maya.

Maka, jika saya tidak tertarik dengan perwatakan yang mereka di alam maya, saya tidak akan berkawan dengan mereka, dan ini agak merugikan, kerana mungkin perwatakan sebenar mereka bukan begitu. 

maka, apa sebenarnya maksud 'friend' di facebook? adakah ianya cuma persahabatan yang 'superficial, yang main2 serta tidak serious? 

Apa yang saya dapati adalah warga facebook lebih senang menerima orang2 yang pandai melakunkan watak yang menarik. Wanita atau lelaki yang pandai bergurau senda di wall, , yang pandai 'flirt' serta yang agak manja serta gedik... hehe. Perwatakan beginilah yang selelunya akan mendapat banyak komen serta like di wall mereka. 

Mereka2 yang menunjukkan perwatakn sebenar , ie, yang watak di alam nyata sama dengan watak di alam maya, selalunya dianggap terlalu serious, terlalu emosi serta kadangkala dijadikan bahan sindiran. Watak begitu hanya sesuai di alam nyata... kata mereka...

Apakah kejujuran, keikhlasan serta kepercayaan langsung tiada nilai di facebook? Persahabatan adalah sesuatu yang saya anggap sebagai serious, namun bila saya bertanyakan sesuatu yang memerlukan mereka bersikap jujur, saya sering dipersendakan dan dianggap terlalu sensitif dan emosi. Whatever. 

ps: Yang pasti, hanya di facebook, seorang wanita atau lelaki boleh bergurau senda dengan mesra di wall dengan seorang yang bukan suami, isteri atau kekasih mereka. Cuba buat begitu di alam nyata... LOL...

HEY, YOU WANNA BALLOON?

With the recent comeback of horror movies in our cinemas, I was reminded of the books I have read . Yes, this is my favourite literary genre, and it is no surprise that my all time favourite writer is Stephen King, followed closely by Annie Rice and Dean Koontz. Anyway, I just want to share one that I read ages ago... "IT" by Stephen King.

Derry, Maine is a quiet town, terrorized every 30 years by a horror known only as "It". The only victims of "It" are children. Through the form of a clown named Pennywise, "It" wakes up every 30 years and feeds. The adults of Derry act like "It" doesn't happen. Ironically they know about "It", but the events are too horrible to talk about. Seven outcasts, known as The Lucky Seven, Bill, Ben, Beverly, Eddie, Richie, Mike, and Stan are able to defeat "It" as children and make a pact to return and do battle again should the terror return. Now 30 years later, Mike Hanlon who stayed behind, is puzzled by a bizarre occurrence of child murders. When he discovers that "It" has come back, he reunites what's left of The Lucky Seven, now in their middle ages to do battle once again, and "It" is ready. The Lucky Seven must now defeat "It" and cure Derry of "The Derry Disease".

 
Ok... if i had to choose a book that I particularly enjoyed, it would be this one...'IT' by Stephen King...no kidding!!? My all time favourite writer? why IT? Why not 'The Body' or 'Misery' or any of the countless books he has written? I'm not sure, actually...but the thing that is imprinted in my mind is the fact that when they were children, they managed to kill 'IT' with a slingshot, using silver bullets/slugs, which they actually made by melting their moms' silverware. 

However, 30 years later when Pennywise...that's the name of the clown (IT) resurfaced, (apparently, IT will appear in the form of something which the kids fear or hate most, eg, if you're afraid of spiders, than you will encounter IT in the form of a giant spider or in the case of Bill who felt guilty for the death of his brother, he had to face his little brother blaming him for his death. But generally, IT appears in the form of a clown holding orange balloons, saying 'Hey! You wanna a balloon?') , 

so, when Pennywise reappeared 30 years later, the silver bullets didn't work anymore. Another similar incident was when one of the kids, (I honestly cannot remember his name now cos someone borrowed the novel and forgot to return it, same thing with the vcd) anyway, this kid was a bit wimpish...and to make it worse, he had asthma...and at one point, out of desperation, he used his inhaler to defeat pennywise by pretending that it was battery acid...and it worked, of course, when he tried the same trick 30 years later...well, you can guess.

The point is, if the silver bullets and the inhaler worked when they were kids, why didn't they work 30 years later? What went wrong? or more precisely, what has changed?

As I see it, the problem was that they all grew up into sensible, rational thinking, no nonsense adults. The silver bullets and inhaler worked 30 years before because as kids, they really believed that if you want to kill magical monsters, you have to use a silver bullet...ordinary bullets won't work, just like they believed in the tooth fairy, or santaclaus or even magic.

When they were kids, their thinking was ...IT is not an ordinary monster. IT is magical...therefore, only silver bullets can kill it. 30 years later, the way they think was... IT eats children. for IT to eat, it needs to have a physical form and if it has a physical form, it can be killed...no need for silver bullets.

See how they need to rationalize things, put things in perspective so they make sense to their nonsensical adult minds, just so people won't think they're crazy. Is that so bad?...Doing crazy things sometimes? I don't mean turning into a serial killer or something, just doing something we don't ordinarily do, something out of our ordinary norm. Hell, it drives me insane trying to remain sane all the time.

I read somewhere that nobody appears more sane than an insane person. Look at Norman Bates in Psycho. Isn't he the most rational person you've ever seen???...with his clean-cut American-farmboy look and his soft spoken manner...he is the most 'sane' character in the story... until he starts killing...

and most of us go through life doing the same things everyday and then complain that our lives are monotonous. Isn't that insane? Imagine this...everyday we mix blue and yellow and everyday we get green. Then one day, we mix the same colours expecting to get purple...how is that possible. That's what I call crazy...doing the same thing everyday but expecting a different result. If you don't change one of the colours, you will always end up with the same colour...and if you don't change any of your routines but still expect your day to end different than yesterday...you are definitely losing it.

So, lighten up a little. Learn from the children... Listen to the Beatles...'don't carry the world upon your shoulders." Being an adult does not mean we have to know the answer to every question. Face it...the world is not going to stop revolving just because you don't know who Brad Pitt is, and if you can't explain some things, don't. Blame it on divine intervention or destiny or Barisan Nasional. It's hard work trying to rationalize everything so they make sense all the time.

Me? I live my life the way I want to...not really concerned with what other people think...err... as long as they leave me alone...and it works just fine...know why?

Cause I believe in magic. So... you wanna balloon???

IN AN OPEN .... what?

Haha...

A funny thing about relationship status in facebook .. there's 'married', 'single', 'engaged', 'in a relationship', 'in an open relatioship' etc. The rest all speak for themselves... but  'in a relationship' and 'in an open relationship'... what is that all about?

Either you're in a relationship, or you're not ... what on earth is an 'open relationship'? A relationship, whether its close or open, is still a relationship, is it not? 

So, what is an open relationship, exactly? Does it mean that you're in a relationship with sombody, but if someone better comes along... that somebody is history? Wow. ...  Anyway... even that is still 'in a relationship', not a fair one, but still a relationship. Well, just a thought on this rainy night.

ps: If anybody puts his status as    ' in an open relationship with patungcendana',  I would rearrange his FACE ... err...book... hehe

DINGIN PAGI OKTOBER

Puisi ini ditulis oleh rakan facebook saya, Dewi Teratai, Ditulis selepas dia share puisi "Langit Oktober' saya. Maka saya andaikan puisi saya itu sebagai inspirasi untuk dia menulis puisi ini... hehe.. izinkan saya perasan seketika... Katanya, tak tahu mahu letak tajuk apa... maka saya letakkan tajuk untuk puisi ini...

Dingin Pagi Oktober
 

Pagi ini memang dingin..
Tapi tak sedingin sungai yang melimpah airnya
hingga sampan nelayan masih mampu belayar
biarpun dilambung badai

pohon2 subur menghijau
selagi mentari masih bersinar
selagi udara segar masih menderu
dan sungai2 mengalirkan lebihan limpahannya

biarlah ranting2 kecil berderai patah
kutiplah ia, himpunkan semuanya
lalu hidupkan unggun api
agar mengalir bahang panasnya ke tubuh..
biarlah kelopak bunga gugur ke bumi
kutiplah ia, jadikan pewangi
agar harum pusara cinta bonda

Dewi Teratai : 05.10.2013 

Di comment box nya di tulis... ' tidak sehebat Patungcendana'. 

Wah... hebatkah Patungcendana? Statement itu buat saya terfikir, apakah yang menjadi ukuran samada seorang penulis itu hebat atau sebaliknya? Kayu ukurnya bagaimana? Apakah ia di ukur dari segi jumlah penulisanya yang di bukukan atau di published, atau di ukur dari jumlah pembaca yang membaca penulisan itu...atau dari jumlah naskah yang terjual? Saya masih ada lagi beberapa buku yang saya beli namun hingga kini masih belum saya baca... bagaimana itu ya?  Namun, jika penulisan itu, sebagai contoh, dipaparkan di facebook, dan mendapat jumlah pembaca yang ramai, namun ia tidak di published ataupun dibukukan, apakan penulis itu hebat atau tidak? 

Bagi saya, secara peribadi, jika penulisan itu mampu mencetuskan emosi atau reaksi dari saya... mampu membuat saya tersenyum atau ketawa atau membuat saya rasa ingin menangis ... saya anggapkan itu sebagai sesuatu yang hebat. 

Contohnya, puisi2 sahabat blog dan facebook saya, Zawawi Aziz. Kebanyakan puisi2 nya sangat romantik dan menyentuh perasaan... membuat pembaca merasakan seolah2 puisi2 itu ditulis khas untuk dia seorang. Puisi2nya seringkali menimbulkan perasaan rindu dan melankoli bila saya membacanya. Maka, bagi saya , itu adalah sesuatu yang hebat. Tak kisah lah samada ia di published atau tidak. Ia tetap hebat bagi saya yang sensitive dan sentimental ini... sentimental fool kata orang... hehe. 

Sebenarnya, ramai lagi rakan2 blog dan facebook yang saya anggap sebagai penulis hebat, seperti, Mawar Marzuki, Mohd Farez Abdul Karim, Raja Shahrul Helmi, Bert Ramli, Kelompen Koe ... to name a few. Mungkin nama2 mereka tidak dikenali ramai, namun mereka semua hebat di mata saya. Seperti puisi Dewi Teratai ini, membuat saya rasa melankoli dan sunyi sekali. Rasa nak tulis puisi tentang melankoli pula... huhuhu...

Saya tidak bercita2 untuk menjadi penulis hebat, penulisan, terutamanya puisi hanyalah medium untuk saya melakarkan kisah2 hidup saya, serta meluahkan perasaan yang terbuku dihati. Seperti kata papa rock, Ramli Sarip... Aku menulis bukan kerna nama...

Dan jika ada yang sudi baca... itu adalah bonus. 

ps :  Drama is not when the actors cry, Drama is when the audience cries. 

Frank Capra

apa kaitannya dengan penulisan? Fikirkan.. :-D

 

why did the chicken cross the road

why did the chicken cross the road?
because it wants to get to the other side...:-)
semalam aku pergi trim rambut...tapi bahagian depan saja...one small step outside of my comfort zone..

macam ni la rupa aku sekarang...

not too bad ...eh...

you know, giving up the comfort zone is not an easy feat. it involves changes in our routine even our usual train of thoughts sometimes. it would probably help if you were drunk or high or loaded with adrenalin which will hopefully change into courage...:-D

furthermore, you don't know whether you will like it and your brain, keeps saying..hey...you're leaving your comfort zone...you honestly expect to be comfortable? I hate it when my brain is being rational.

ultimately, you will ask yourself...will i be able to go back into my comfort zone if it doesn't work out? admitting defeat?

what if i took the drastic step of chopping off my hair...really short...emma watson short...and even before i was out of the saloon, i couldn't wait for it to grow back. what then? bury myself in a hole for the next two years?

so...i choose to do it little by little. .. maybe i will just stop here...and pick up again later... maybe, I'll stay as I am...happily in my own comfort bubble.

Call me a chicken...i can handle it. but this chicken will only cross the road when its ready to get to the other side... :-)

Anyway, this is my life...and it's my journey...so...you can either walk with me, or...get out of my way...

aku...why did the elephant cross the road? ... because it was the chicken's day off. why did the pervert cross the road?... hahaha...not telling!!!

sepi : indah khabar dari rupa

Aku baru menonton cerita SEPI di astro box office. Bukan apa, sebab aku baca kat blog semua orang yang tengok cerita ni kat wayang…semua bercerita tentang betapa bestnya, betapa touching nya cerita ni…so, my expectation was quite high…


Malangnya…bila aku tengok sendiri ceritanya, aku dapati ceritanya amat membosankan. Jalan ceritanya sangat slow, dialoguenya kebanyakannya agak cliché…dan yang paling aku tak suka ialah watak2nya…



Watak Maria, isteri yang tak setia…suami bekerja bertungkus lumus, dia sibuk bercinta dengan orang lain, tak de nilaikah ikatan perkahwinan baginya...bukankah dia masih seorang isteri... watak sufi…yang baru kehilangan isteri…tak sabar2 nak kawin lagi, senangnya dia jatuh cinta pada orang lain, watak Imaan yang tak boleh menerima kenyataan…give me a break…dan tak ada satu pun dari watak2 itu yang benar2 kelihatan sepi... aku cuba mencari elemen sepi yang ditonjolkan tapi yang ada cuma kata2, dari segi facial expressions serta body language langsung tidak menggambarkan yang mereka sebenarnya amat kesepian.

They don’t know the meaning of kesetiaan and they don’t know the meaning of reality…memang there is a thin line between madness and sanity…tapi bagi seseorang yang educated …takkan serapuh itu pegangannya terhadap reality.


And watak adam…kita harus mengahwini orang yang kita cintai…duh…really???

This story is an insult to my intelligence and my sense of loyalty…aku tahu ramai yang tak setuju dengan pendapat aku…so be it…lain padang lain belalang…

perubahan

Dah lama aku nak tulis pasal ni…tapi aku tulis pasal benda lain pulak…huhuhu…typical


Aku perasan sebulan dua ini ramai space cadets yang aku kenal menukar template blog masing2…bermula dari ‘Life is a journey’, coretan seorang putera, hidup ku organic hinggalah yang last sekali…errr….patungcendana:beyond words…aku punya la tu…


kenapa ya…

Apakah waktu ni kita semua rasa memang sudah masa untuk melakukan perubahan…mungkin sudah bosan dengan template yang sedia ada, atau banyak masalah dengan yang lama, atau saja…mengikut arus…atau sebab merajuk…propa sangat...


Atau perubahan itu adalah reaksi kepada perubahan yang berlaku dalam kehidupan seharian…samada dari segi, physical, emosi atau persekitaran…apa pun yang mencetuskan perubahan itu, harap2 it will be for the better.

Bagi aku…

Bila berlaku sesuatu yang menyebabkan emosi dan mental aku terganggu, aku rasa sangat perlu untuk aku melakukan sesuatu yang memerlukan keberanian…dan pada aku, mengubah satu aspect dalam kehidupan seharian sangat memerlukan keberanian…kerana kebanyakan dari kita memang takut untuk berubah…because changes create challenges…

Still, kadar perubahan bergantung kepada kadar gangguan itu…lebih serious problemnya, lebih drastic lah perubahannya…yang paling drastic pernah aku buat ialah memotong rambut sependek mungkin…it wasn’t easy…because once I did it…I’m stuck with it…but it kept me from getting stuck in the past…


at least tukar template blog…kita boleh tukar semula kalau tak suka…

Walaupun sekadar mengubah template blog sahaja, yang penting kita sedar kenapa kita melakukan perubahan itu.

We can either embrace the change and move forward into a new life or situation or we can stay stuck in the past.